i want to do so much
with my life and get out more, but everytime i go out, theres something that i know is going to annoy me.
i just need friends (other than jake) that actually respond to respect like i do.
i need good friends but their hard to come by these days
reasons why i dont do anything but work
- people suck
- opposing work schedules
- weather
- lack of interest in my favorite things to do by others
- i cant win no matter how hard i try to make things intresting
- i suck
- work abuses the fact that i actually work
- drama
- always tired because i never actually get to do the things i plan out
- people are fake
- lying
- i can never do things right (never it seems for anyone)
- depression from the fact that i do so much that seems to go unnoticed.
basically i work and sleep. no one actually is awake or willing to do anything or unless i pay and find transportation cuz no one wants to actually enjoy life to its fullest. and plus i always without a doubt get ditched unless its band practice too.
my life isnt the way i chose it to be, but its not my fault. i would like it to be more active as well, but its time i got the amount of respect i dish out to people who dont even acknowledged the fact that i do things i dont want to to help their lives instead of my own.
